Today....

Today I find myself mostly irritated! A good portion of it may be that I decided to have ONE cherry coke a week and it is killing me already!
But any who ....
As I have said before, I want to start talking more on here about our struggle with conceiving. Lately I find myself pissed off about it more than anything, but not just at the fact of the troubles. Let me preface this by saying a shit ton of my friends have had children in 2010 or are currently expecting, and with our struggles, this does not leave me any less happy about theirs at all! I absolutely love babies and would take turns going to each of their houses on a daily basis to give them a break so I could just sit there and hold their little one, but that can't be done....so on to my rant. I feel really let down by some friends lately. It is like they are afraid to talk to me since they have had a baby or became pregnant, like they are afraid of what to say to me! Yeah, I know they are now super busy and la la la, but it sucks feeling excluded just because mother nature is completely failing me right now. Maybe they aren't doing it on purpose, but boy does it feel shitty. I hate being at this in between place, and it feels like I have been stuck here forever. I have the friends who now have kids and hang out with the friends who have kids...and than there are the other friends who like to drink and party all the time...I am neither. I am the I-want-kids-now-work-from-pretty-much-home-wife. I am BORING!

Well HAPPY WEDNESDAY! I am so happy some of our shows are starting back this week, as busy as I was during the holidays I sure did miss my shows! Hope everyone made is safely to the halfway mark of the week! :)